new year

today is the last day of 2008
oh my gosh its gone so fast i cannot believe it

every new years i always make a umm i cant remeber that word lol
but anyway mine was to keep my room tidy, to be good and to have a relationship with god.im sure there was other parts too
humm well i didnt keep any of them well i kept my room tidy some days and i tried to be good..humm guess it dosent count.
this year my new years thing is to get into uni well work hard at school so i can get the qualifacations to go to uni

man to tell the truth im soo scared about next year
everything is going to change in such big ways
i was so just getting used to the way that things were this year

i want next year to be the year that im happy
i want to be able to not care about others opinions about me
i want to be able to feel good just being me
i want to feel like im pretty without makeup or worring about my hair
i want to make a diference
i want to learn random things just because i can
i want to smile without a reason
i want to get a camera and take lots of photos and make a scrapbook
i want to keep all my friends
i want to be able to sit and do nothing
i want to be in a relationship with god

maybe i shouldnt want so much things thats a bit selfish
but i really think all that would make my year great
i think though it means i have to do some serious changes of myself

twenty-o-nine
here the new mecomes

...

She says things are fallen into place
Feels like they're fallen apart
I painted this big ol' smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew
This is where I don't say what I want so bad to say
This is where I want to but I won't get in the way
Of her and her dreams
And spreadin' her wings

help?or not

im trying to figure out f someone like me can help this world
cause is that why we are here?
im not quite sure

wow its been a while..

far out i have so much things that i could say
but where to start..
oh ill just talk about the ball
gosh it was such fun
i love getting all dressed up and dancing aroung
but i not really a fan of the photos part lol okay my computer is being slow as
im so in love with this picture everything about it is soo cool
ill upload some more next time
xo

so i got this email..

i got this in a email and thought ill let you all get to know me lol

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
girl

Who was it?
loran

What does the 6th text in your inbox say?
culd u please txt me sumtime.cos we need ta talk.nd if u dont wana talk tatz fine but i gues we wnt be fwends

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
depending on my mood lol but probably more offten regular

Do you sleep on your stomach?
not usually lol

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night?
haha no one ever rings me lol

Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow?
work

Last time you saw fireworks, with whom & where?
in my bed outside my window an i was by myself lol

Do you have a deep dark secret?
most likely but if i did i cant tell

Ever been on a blind date?
haha no

Do you like horror or comedy?
horror cause it scares me haha silly but i like comedy too

Anything you want to tell someone?
yeap but not sure how

What is on your bed right now?
should be pillows blankets and my torch lol

Are you allergic to anything?
i dont think so

Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now
yeap

What do you want to be when you grow up?
if i grow up haha
a teacher

Do you have anything to complain about?
yes but ive given up about compalining bout things or people cause it always turns out bad

What's your favorite season?
summer but i love winter haha

Do you hate being alone?
yes it makes me feel scared and that someone going to attack me

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
yes one from marie

The last thing you put in your mouth?
ahh well my phones in my mouth now lol

Do you prefer to call or text?
text cause i scared ill muck up when talking on the phone

When was the last time you laughed really, really hard?
yesterday it was so random everyone was like aye what she laughing bout and i couldnt say cause my tummy hurt so i laugh more haha then i forgot what i was laughing bout and everyone laughed

Can you live a day without TV and computer?
yes but if its there ill just go to it if there nothing else to do but i went to this camp for 2 weeks and there was no technology haha

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yes on the right side and sometimes the middle

Have you got a certain somebody on your mind right now?
yeap

Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone?
oh gosh umm..oh danielle like a few hours ago

What websites are you on right now?
this bebo and my email haha multi taking

How's your hair right now?
tied back still from work

what makes us stronger

there is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that is throwen at them

we arent made that way in fact we are made to get mad upset sad be hurt stumble and fall we arent supposed to be able to handle everything but thats what makes us stronger in the end by learning from the things that hurt us the most