new year

today is the last day of 2008
oh my gosh its gone so fast i cannot believe it

every new years i always make a umm i cant remeber that word lol
but anyway mine was to keep my room tidy, to be good and to have a relationship with god.im sure there was other parts too
humm well i didnt keep any of them well i kept my room tidy some days and i tried to be good..humm guess it dosent count.
this year my new years thing is to get into uni well work hard at school so i can get the qualifacations to go to uni

man to tell the truth im soo scared about next year
everything is going to change in such big ways
i was so just getting used to the way that things were this year

i want next year to be the year that im happy
i want to be able to not care about others opinions about me
i want to be able to feel good just being me
i want to feel like im pretty without makeup or worring about my hair
i want to make a diference
i want to learn random things just because i can
i want to smile without a reason
i want to get a camera and take lots of photos and make a scrapbook
i want to keep all my friends
i want to be able to sit and do nothing
i want to be in a relationship with god

maybe i shouldnt want so much things thats a bit selfish
but i really think all that would make my year great
i think though it means i have to do some serious changes of myself

twenty-o-nine
here the new mecomes

...

She says things are fallen into place
Feels like they're fallen apart
I painted this big ol' smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew
This is where I don't say what I want so bad to say
This is where I want to but I won't get in the way
Of her and her dreams
And spreadin' her wings

help?or not

im trying to figure out f someone like me can help this world
cause is that why we are here?
im not quite sure

wow its been a while..

far out i have so much things that i could say
but where to start..
oh ill just talk about the ball
gosh it was such fun
i love getting all dressed up and dancing aroung
but i not really a fan of the photos part lol okay my computer is being slow as
im so in love with this picture everything about it is soo cool
ill upload some more next time
xo