i just need a minute..

wow wheres the time gone
i dont have time too blog anymore
i dont have time too have a life anymore
if i didnt have too sleep then i could get everything i needed too done
i hate time
i hate how you have too be somewhere at a certain time
about this time last week everything was perfect
seriously i was loveing everything
one thing that was tiny little changed that
and then something else happend
and then i failed yet another test
and then i was asked about my plans far next year
well thats just got me in a spin
truely ive forgotten about anything else that has made me confused or upset
im trying too figure out next year
i had it all planed out
i was going to go off too uni
get my degree
then be a teacher in a small town
have a few kids
then go back to taching
and then sometime after that travel to africa
and then come back and live happiley ever after
but now...
now i want too not do that
well eventually yes bu not now
i just want some time
i wan too go off and work for a year and then do uni in 2011
i want too quit school and leave the failing tests behind
leave the catty girls behind
but its too fimiliar and so im scared
im scared tha whatever i do ill end up on the street or something
im scared that ill loose everything if i make the wrong choice
or worse im scared that ill loose some things and they will be thie things that i cant live without
i need some time too think
i need some time too breathe
i need some time too escape

sweet smell

ahh home at last
i missed everyone to a point i never even thought was possible
one thing i didnt miss though was reality
golly gosh it hit me hard
expesially today
who knew that even when you were in a different country for over two weeks and only back for one day
its terrible but i think it will be okay
i think that everything is going too be fine though
im hoping reality is going too smell nice and that i wont want to tun away anymore

time out

okay so i have 6 min too blog
or else it will turn ff on me
i miss everyone like absolutely crazy aye
the weater is real nice over here and ive done heaps of shopping haha prety much out of money now
i found my ball dress i just hve to take mum too show here it tommorrow and i need to try it on haha i hope that it fits
5min left
i was walking down the beach before and im real sad cause i hate being alone like i really cant stand it and even though im with my family its not the same
i soo wish i caould run away back home
3 min
haha i cant type very fast
beka and cat i have presents for you okay
ohh and can someone say happy birthday too colin on his birthday from me please
2 min
i have too go
i love and miss you all
xoxo

ahh

i have 3.53min of time too blog
silly having too pay for internet like this
whooa scary plane ride over
but weathers great
already looking at a dress too buy it on sale for $100 down from $300 humm i soo wish that decisions like this were easy
i miss everyone xoxo

holliday

so at the moment im in auckland using a computer thats costing $2 for 15min haha crazy
i miss everyone soo much already and i have no idea how im going to last the rest of the holliday
apparently tonight there is ment to be thunder storm and tornatos
how crazy is that im a bit scared but i hope that its not going to be as bad as it sounds and that we can fly out tommorrow
ahh gosh running out of time
i shall update more when i find another place that is cheeper or something
got to get up and catch bus at ten too four in morning haha how exciting
update later
missing everyone
xoxo