Failed

Ahh dont you hate it when you fail something
im not talking about failing school im talking about failing a friend
Failing yourself
you can never make it up to your friend
they ask you to do something and you try to but your attempt fails
so you not just failed yourself you failed them
you let them down
i cant believe it

to you my friend..

Dont walk in front of me i will not folllow
Dont walk behind me i will not lead
Walk beside me and be my friend

My best Friend ever
CATHERINE
Catherine your a star
straight up i love you
you walk beside me whatever happens
you pick me up when i fall
you know the right words to say
you have a a smile that lights up the sky
you are absolutely beautiful
you have the whole world in your hands and can do anything you want in life
you are yourself
hehe and there is soo much more i could say but i must run now
hehe love you
keep smiling
have a great week
xoxo

i dont know if you know

i cant really tell at the moment if im up or down
left or right
right or wrong
broken or fixed
week or strong
i just dont know anymore
i didn't know if you knew so i'm taking this chance to say that i had the best day with you today

drunken words..?

its scary when you know that your doing something that you shouldnt do but for some stupid reason you continue to do it anyway
possibly im doing things i know that i shouldnt too hide all my hurting
actually i am
im trying to hide everything because maybe thien it will go away
its like the other day when i was drunk i started to cry saying i dont like this i dont want to feel like this any more
everyone thought that it was just the achohol but isnt drunken words the ones that you dont say the words that you hide
i kinda want someone to like just be there
i dont want someone that is going to tell me they know how i feel
i think i want someone that would try too help me
i think i need someone that wiil hold me
someone that will let me cry with them for ages
someone that wont let me go

Fearless

To me, "FEARLESS" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving something despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. Because I think love is FEARLESS

the 7 things i hate about today

today has been one of those days thats like arghh
summary
*got my school report
*got blamed for something i didnt do
*got heaps of mean texts
*my friend hates me
*i been thinking about things wayy too much
*i saw something today which reminded me of something bad and scary and almost cried at work
*i dont have a clue where anyone has gone so im alone
so thats seven things just like that for today
and trust me the list could go on
i soo just want too scream or do something crazyly silly right now

yes, no, maybe so?

people have been telling me things that they observe and im starting to think i might be giving people mixed messages
particually guys
well this is not a good thing
although at the time i dont even notice what im doing which could be a bad thing in the long run
when you feel better doing or saying things should you think about how it could effect the other person or be 'leading them on'
i really dont see anything bad with my what people call 'flirting'
but turns out everyone else does

happy times

today i went on a walk
i got up at half five and it was real dark so i was scared so i sat in bed and waited till a bit after six when it wasnt pitch black haha there was even still some stars up in the sky while i was walking cool aye
then because chris said last night he wanted to join me i let him and it was different when your with someone else
haha we herd some roosters crowing actually heaps were going off and then even a cow
but it was too cloudy too see the sun rise as good as i usally do..but thats okay
then me and nicole did the breakfast club at school and had 11 people come which was waay more than the last time we did it when no one turned up lol
this afternoon i brought a bed spreed for my bed and im quite liking it because i have been wanting it for ages and it was finally half price cause i didnt want too pay $60 for it lol
then when i was walking home i saw a rainbow and then another one a bit away from it which made my day
and well in all this happy stuff there was somethings that bring me down but lets not go into all that because im happy now
:)
ohh and im getting my hair cut tomorrow which i still dont know what i want too get sone too it lol but ill figure something out

long time no see

hehe gosh its been a while
well i dont have much time too post much
but wow church camp was awesome
someone told me something that i shall keep forever
something that makes me soo happy to know