unbelievable

truely and honesty i cant believe it
life is great
its like finaly everything is falling into place
theres the few little bump
but thats okay because the sea cant be perfectly flat sailing can it?
i cannot understand why this is happening
i feel like i cant deserve it
im not complaining truely
just questioning
im going too take this and try too keep it for as long as i can
and dont think of stopping me

you

i can remember the first time i saw you
it was crazy
i felt like for that one moment that i looked at you everything stopped
among all the people around all i could see was you
i had absoultely no idea who you were
all i knew was i had too get to know you
im soo absoultely glad that ive got too know you

one way or the other

i want too but i dont
i can but i cant
im happy but im sad
im soo confused
maybe i should but mabye i shouldnt

arghh

i want too scream
i have no idea what is wrong though
im sure everything is fine
everything is going good

ohh yes

im quite in love
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the one thing i want in a guy..

all i want is a guy that would kiss and dance with me in the rain
thats kinda two things aye?
oh well
that would be soo cute though dont you think
i think it would
cause i dont know how it gets better than this you take my hand and drag me head first fearless
and i dont know why but with you id dance in a storm with you in my best dress fearless

tick all the right boxes?..

im on my lunch break at the moment and kinda happy but not..
i have been talking with my boss about my self assesment thing and she couldnt understand why i had put my self with low marks and she put me with higher marks.
i was told i have to stop putting myself down because im just as good as everyone else
everyones the same and no one is better than anyone else
that kind of stuff
when you assess/judge someone else its different too when you look at yourself
your told to treat everyone the same
well what if you do but yourself isnt included in that
i think thats what i do.

last week

thursday night last week
i still remember it

it was crazy

like everything just

turned around

i couldnt tell what was right

and what was wrong

i did something i shouldnt have

something i know was wrong

i coulndnt help it

i had too

it seemed the only way out

but turns out everything is just the same

week too remember..

• sleeping in
• photos
• lying in the square
• photos throwing leaves
• cathering getting bird poo on her from doing that
• traveling for a hour for a picnic
• going to the 'best fish n chips place' (they werent that great)
• having lunch at like four
• feeding the ducks
• counting 14 passing lanes
• going into shops we could never afford
• parking in a hour parking for 7 hours
• going into wedding dress shops
• going too new world with a trolly then leaving with two lollypops in it
• feeling soo sleepy then lying in bed and talking
• introducing catherine too taylor swift
• going on the kids train too the playground
• dying eachothers hair
• random shopping trollys in the street
• making pancakes with a banned ingredient
• having too cut the toast in half too fit it in the toaster
• buying matching pjs
• macDs everyday
• mini frozen cokes
• whiteboard marker on the window
• keys nailed too a block of wood
• guys mooning catherine
• going too the movies
• meeting up with aaron and shaun who we didnt believe would hitch hike just for macDs
• when we were dringking our frozen cokes and got told too get off the stair
• walking through drive through at 2 in the moring in our pjs
• then going back around because we forgot too get sauce
• buyng coloured tights
• wearing my pink tutu for the day
• and going into ucol with it on(scary)
• trying to get a membership at video places
• walking onto town
• meeting guys that could jump over tables
• finding catherine a ball dress on sale and then getting $5 off it again
• op shop shopping
• having fun!!

Silence continued..

i hate the silence cause it screams the truth.

..

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life

Silence

i love being around noise
any kinda of noise becasue i hate silence
when your in the silence its always the loudest
like all these voices going through your head
all trying to yell out at you at once
its quite confusing
just thought id share that lol

bullet proof..or not?

you might think im bullet proof but im not
i cannot take the way that you are towards me anymore
ive put up with it for way too long
so manytimes ive let it go pretended that i didnt hurt but time and time again you keep hurting me
i dont think you understand what it does to me
when i try to make things better you just make it worse
it turns back on me
i have absolutely no idea what ive done wrong

i dont care anymore
ive thought long and hard and you are not worth the pain
i take a step back
let you go
i told you im not bullet proof
now you know

its a matter of prespective

its kinda crazy but its true

everyone sees things differently

if you see a guy and a girl together you assume they are a item

if you see friends laughing togeter you assume they dont fight

if you see a girl smiling you assume everything is fine

we are soo too quick too judge situations

sometimes you have to see life through another persons eyes

take a second too see what they see

listen too there side of things
i have this smile that covers up soo much things

i wish you would take the time to see things through my eyes first

Another star in my life

okay so ive blogged about my star catherine
well theres another star
her name is Beka
Beka you are a star
you are so georgous
you are so pretty
you bright up a room when you walk in
you have the most cutest smile
you have this thing where you always seem to text me the right thing at the right time
we are new world buddies lol
beka i love you
and im ment to be doing some english homework right now lol so i must go
keep on smiling
ill see you at youth group tomorrow
xoxo