new year

today is the last day of 2008
oh my gosh its gone so fast i cannot believe it

every new years i always make a umm i cant remeber that word lol
but anyway mine was to keep my room tidy, to be good and to have a relationship with god.im sure there was other parts too
humm well i didnt keep any of them well i kept my room tidy some days and i tried to be good..humm guess it dosent count.
this year my new years thing is to get into uni well work hard at school so i can get the qualifacations to go to uni

man to tell the truth im soo scared about next year
everything is going to change in such big ways
i was so just getting used to the way that things were this year

i want next year to be the year that im happy
i want to be able to not care about others opinions about me
i want to be able to feel good just being me
i want to feel like im pretty without makeup or worring about my hair
i want to make a diference
i want to learn random things just because i can
i want to smile without a reason
i want to get a camera and take lots of photos and make a scrapbook
i want to keep all my friends
i want to be able to sit and do nothing
i want to be in a relationship with god

maybe i shouldnt want so much things thats a bit selfish
but i really think all that would make my year great
i think though it means i have to do some serious changes of myself

twenty-o-nine
here the new mecomes

...

She says things are fallen into place
Feels like they're fallen apart
I painted this big ol' smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew
This is where I don't say what I want so bad to say
This is where I want to but I won't get in the way
Of her and her dreams
And spreadin' her wings

help?or not

im trying to figure out f someone like me can help this world
cause is that why we are here?
im not quite sure

wow its been a while..

far out i have so much things that i could say
but where to start..
oh ill just talk about the ball
gosh it was such fun
i love getting all dressed up and dancing aroung
but i not really a fan of the photos part lol okay my computer is being slow as
im so in love with this picture everything about it is soo cool
ill upload some more next time
xo

so i got this email..

i got this in a email and thought ill let you all get to know me lol

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
girl

Who was it?
loran

What does the 6th text in your inbox say?
culd u please txt me sumtime.cos we need ta talk.nd if u dont wana talk tatz fine but i gues we wnt be fwends

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
depending on my mood lol but probably more offten regular

Do you sleep on your stomach?
not usually lol

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night?
haha no one ever rings me lol

Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow?
work

Last time you saw fireworks, with whom & where?
in my bed outside my window an i was by myself lol

Do you have a deep dark secret?
most likely but if i did i cant tell

Ever been on a blind date?
haha no

Do you like horror or comedy?
horror cause it scares me haha silly but i like comedy too

Anything you want to tell someone?
yeap but not sure how

What is on your bed right now?
should be pillows blankets and my torch lol

Are you allergic to anything?
i dont think so

Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now
yeap

What do you want to be when you grow up?
if i grow up haha
a teacher

Do you have anything to complain about?
yes but ive given up about compalining bout things or people cause it always turns out bad

What's your favorite season?
summer but i love winter haha

Do you hate being alone?
yes it makes me feel scared and that someone going to attack me

Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up?
yes one from marie

The last thing you put in your mouth?
ahh well my phones in my mouth now lol

Do you prefer to call or text?
text cause i scared ill muck up when talking on the phone

When was the last time you laughed really, really hard?
yesterday it was so random everyone was like aye what she laughing bout and i couldnt say cause my tummy hurt so i laugh more haha then i forgot what i was laughing bout and everyone laughed

Can you live a day without TV and computer?
yes but if its there ill just go to it if there nothing else to do but i went to this camp for 2 weeks and there was no technology haha

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
yes on the right side and sometimes the middle

Have you got a certain somebody on your mind right now?
yeap

Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone?
oh gosh umm..oh danielle like a few hours ago

What websites are you on right now?
this bebo and my email haha multi taking

How's your hair right now?
tied back still from work

what makes us stronger

there is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that is throwen at them

we arent made that way in fact we are made to get mad upset sad be hurt stumble and fall we arent supposed to be able to handle everything but thats what makes us stronger in the end by learning from the things that hurt us the most

it must be a girl thing

the worst thing is
when someone starts to treat you diferent
when they talk to you with a diferent tone in there voice
when they smile at you diferent
when there eyes have a diferent look when they see you
and even the text messages from them sounds diferent

the worst is when you try so hard to make things go back to the way they were but you have no idea what you did wrong

Outside Looking In

You don't know my name

you don't know anything about me

I try to play nice

I want to be in your game

The things that you say

You may think

I never hear about them

But word travels fast

I'm telling you to your face

I'm standing here behind your back

You don't know how it feels

To be outside the crowd

You don't know what it's like

To be left out

And you don't know how it feels

To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind

You might see more of me that meets the eye

And you've been all wrong

Not who you think I am

You've never given me a chance

You don't know how it feels

To be outside the crowd

You don't know what it's like

To be left outAnd you don't know how it feels

To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home

I'm bored and all aloneI

'm sick of wasting all my time

You don't know how it feels

To be outside the crowd

You don't know what it's like

To be left out

And you don't know how it feels

To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels

To be outside the crowd

You don't know what it's like

To be left out

And you don't know how it feels

To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

scared

man im freasking out about my maths exam i cant concerntrate my hands are even shaking soo badly while im typing this so im making heaps of mistakes
gosh i tried to study last night and had to give up caouse i have forgotten everything i should know
its only the achived questions
this is so bad

..

sometimes i feel like im not worth it

trip to nowhere

so yesterday me and danielle took a road trip to no where

we (when i say we i mean danielle) just drove haha singing along to some random as songs

the weather was soo cool too and man the roads and the trees and the coluds all looked so awesome its times like that i wished i had a video camera or something that takes good photos

so anyway i leave you with this

umm that wasnt the photo i was ment to upload haha but its too late to find the other one cause takes too long

anywho

Every moment of your life is a picture which you have never seen before which you'll never see again So enjoy life and make each moment beautiful.

Freedom..

its so crazy
today is my first real day of freedom
well no school
and im wasting it on the computer
i must say i got up early to go to my grandmas for breakfast but apart from that im not doing anything very creative with my day
seriously and honestly i wish i was back at school cause then i know i would study for my exams but here at home all by myself i have soo many distractions like
ha i was watchin a funny video on youtube
dancing around crazy
singing cause no one is listening to get angry
listen to the rain
watch the rainc
heck my emails
go on bebo
update my blog
sit in the silence
watch tv
look up songs on google
stare in the cupbord...real random cause i not even hungry
lie on my bed

well thats all ive been doing this morning all to avoid studying
humm thats what happens when your home by yourself you try to find things to do that arnt even nessery or you just sit and do nothing
my first exam is in wesnday
quite exciting accutaly im looking forward to it for some reason
im crazy i know lol

Icing sugar for breaky

Waffles
gosh i love them
catherine stayed at mine the other night and we desided to have waffles for our breakfast
haha with some cream and i hadnt wipped cream before and i put like half a cup of icing sugur in the cream haha apparently you only put a spoon into it
well the cream was very ahh sweet haha
whoops my bad ill remeber for next time

seems to feel like forever

today has been crazy and its only half one
last night it was half eleven i think and my neigbours let off fireworks
i am terrified of the noise fireworks mak.and i was having a great dream then bang bang gosh it was like they were going on forever an it was right outside my window ahh..
then thismorning i got up real early i think it was about fiveish and i was wide awake but i wanted to go to sleep but i couldnt man that was annoying
so i got up and got ready for work and tidyed up my bed and room for when catherine comes today haha my room wasnt messy just my bed so i didnt have much to do to kill the time.
at work it was like every single kid was crazy they all wanted something that was completly useless to them and all the kids would get grumpy at there parents
humm i wonder how much things that are completly useless to me but i have
how much things ive wanted that i never got
heaps probably i remeber wishing on stars for silly things like a guy to like me haha or wishing that something would be on sale and when it wasnt i would be like soo disaponted lol

crazy as
catch you later

Clumsey..

so i did the most silly thing today at work

i was just about finished and was doing my last lot of milk and had it all stacked up and was moving it around to the door and then crash

i saw it all happen in slow motion and i freaked out aye the four high crates fell to the ground with me landing on top then all i saw was milk all over the floor man i was almost in tears aye but without anyone seeing i cleaned oll the milk up luckly only spilt one bottle out of the 30 or so bottles that had fallen gosh it was scary though

i had always been scared of making the milk crash but i felt like it was something that wouldnt happen to me crazy thing to think ha i just thought

you know how people die and you know it will happen to you but you feel like your pretty safe for know kinda like we are invinsable and really we arnt aye like i could die tomorrow and my life would be over and i like havnt done half the things i want to do

humm okay i went from work to dieing lol

new room

wow man im having the best week so far
its the last week of school which is quite exciting and well exams start next week but thats okay...kinda haha
i have my own room far out i havent had my own room in ages and although its not pretty and its nothing special i dont care cause its my space for me
my room is like the sleep out and during the day it gets hot but at night its cold as lol oh well
haha and my fear of being outside in the dark dont help very much i cant leave my room when it starting to get dark cause then ill be too scared to go back haha but shh lol
far and this weather is soo great aye i cant believe it aye i love the sun but not when its too hot lol
man soo many more things to say that i dont know where to start
well i have too go do some stuff for school
bye

flying poo

haha so today me and catherine went to collect some very yumm dried up poo for fundraisng for going to parachute haha there was six of us that went to help i think and none of them were guys gosh they lazy haha
so me and catherine are working together in shoveling the poo and she holding the bag open haha she brave..and i only got it on her a few times haha and we are having this race with the others to see who could fill the most bags
and well i must say me and catherine soo won yay we are a great team even though we absolutley are not friends aye :)
and then catherine gave me some poo for my christmas present haha
i guess you had to be there to hear the conversations or else it not sound as funny
oh and then i got some poo in my eye and i think catherine got some in her mouth(dont quote me on that lol)
and man the others are so mean to me i got like tow worms throwen at me yuck
oh and then i was brave and climbed up the pile of poo haha and it was a huge pile and i just bout fell and well i thought i should get down couse i didnt want to eat some poo haha
so much more things happend but its the things that you cant put into words lol the things that you just so had to be there haha

and even though im not your friend catherine i love you

xoxo

this is me

stacey

the only person i can be

This is real, this is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now

Gonna let the light, shine on me

Now I've found, who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

thanks beka for the photos

shopping yay

oh gosh today has been so great
i finally got a new phone
and im loving it aye
and i also got this real good bargain on this top form supre
so i was looking around and thin right at the back of this shop was this rack so i looked in it and there was this top thats yellow and i love it ae anywho it was down to $5 because a bit of the stitiching had came undone haha so i thought i could fix it the original price for the top was $30 so im quite proud of myself
haha yes i know im quite tight with my money lol haha my phone was even $100 off

what can i say
i love a bargin

..$1 ice cream..

so the other day was $1 ice cream day
how exciting is that
so me beka cat and jordan went all the way too woodvile to get some ice creams for $1
although they cost a bit more because we chocolate dipped them lol
then we went to the park and beka locked catherine in the car sound crazy but it turns out it can happen lol so we were trying to get her out for a while..then we went and played on everything which was fun and beka got some photos which i cant wait to see..then we went and got some cheese cake and i had never tried cheese cake before and it tasted pretty yummy i must say

oh gosh thats me got to go
xoxo

..this is me..

im a pretty normal girl
i go on the computer way too much
i stay up late texting
im always crying about movies
i believe everything happens for a reason
i love watching the stars
i get scared easy
i like the silence
although sometimes loud music is better to drown everything out
i like the smell of flowers
and i love some little details in life
i have dreams and goals
sometimes i feel as though i can achive them
sometimes i feel strong
but sometimes i feel like like i want to break
and that theres nothing id like more
than a great big hug!