all of yesterday(well the interesting bits)

went to work at 8.51 am
while i was at work i found out about something that may come in handy may not?
well the other day i was asked how come the whipped cream in the can is on the top shelf but then there is one that is on the bottem shelf
well i had no idea so i asked the person i was working with and they didnt know either
soo yesterday i asked my boss and the answer..
well apparantly the one on the bottem shelf is yoghurt based
who would of guessed
well i was quite excited that i knew the answer to this and really wanted somone to ask but no noone did
so when my mum came in i was like mum ask me why the wipped creams are in different places
well she just thought i was crazy haha but at least i got to tell someone.
last night i made what i think is going to be a very cool phurchase
i got two tickets to go and see Basshunter
and with the wonders of the computers it just cost me five dollars extra to get them emaild to me so i could print them
yay so i have them right now
fast aye
soo thats quite exciting
when i went to bed i couldnt sleep because i ahve this thing on my mind and i have no idea what to do about it
so this person(person 1) is lying to my friend(person 2) and i found out about it
they are both very close people and i know if person 2 found out she would like go comepletly down hill..like thats no exsagtration at all
and see i want too be a good friend and tell but i also want to be a good friend and protect her
..oh yeah and i shouldnt even know about this because person 1s best friend told me and if person 1 found out they would get angry at there best friend and me
i dont know if that made any sense at all but well see haha
tommorrow i have no school cause its queens birthday so its a short week at school for me
but the week after that we have exam week
i only have two exams i thought i had three but nope
i really dont like exams but i know i cant stress too much about them
ohh and shaun went away for the weekend and isnt getting back till tommorrow night when im at work so i wont be able too see him till tuesday
thats a long time
and i cant even text him cause i ran out
guttard aye
haha oh well i must fly to church
wow this was a long blog

confuzled puzzle

have you ever watched a little kid do a puzzle?
they grab it off the shelf and straight away tip the bits out
then they sit there fustrated trying too put them all back but they didnt know what the end result looked like so its very difficult
then other children come and go and help putting bits in and the puzzle is slowly coming together
then theres this kid that comes along and wasnt really watching where they were going(or maybe they were?)and they step right thorough it and bits go flying everywhere but they just continue walking along like nothing happened..
then the chid is left to try find all the peices that went flying and put it together

its a bit like that for me at the momnent
the peices are hard to find cause you have spread them out
i dont know what the end result is ment to look like because i didnt take time to stop and look
people keep helping me but sometimes they dont help that much and i get angry and fustrated
i wish that i could do it on my own but i know i cant
but at the same time i dont want help
because it makes me feel usless

if you cant then no one can

when the people that should care dont how are you ment to believe that the ones that dont have to care do?
how mucked up is that!

..

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside of my head, tellin'
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost in no direction,
My faith is shakin'

dont look back moment has gone..

wow been a while
everything has been soo crazy
last week i was walking too church and it was so windy that i decided too walk backwards so that i wouldnt mess up my hair
i remeber the sky looked so horrible and dark grey clouds and looked like out that way it was raining
i was starting to go off track a bit so i turned back around and walked normal and guess what i saw
a beautiful rainbow
its crazy i had been spending all my time looking backwards at the horrible weather that had already past over my way instead of looking forward to where i was going

this is what im doing at the moment looking back at the storms and not forgeting about them i am remebering what it felt like to be covered in it
to cry in the rain
i need to turn around and look to where im going
but when i do i look too far i get scared
im soo scared
its different to what im used too

let the rain fall down on me

sometimes i like the rain
sometimes i dont
at youth group the other day we were talking about storms
i love the idea of this
okay so this is what mine looks like..
theres always rain
always
i like it when its spitting because its easy too walk in. you dont have to worry about being protected you can just keep walking
then it starts too get a little harder the rain drops slowly get bigger and mess up your hair and makeup and so on
but its still easy too handle
sometimes
then theres the storm where its crazy and theres wind and your blowing away and you have too keep your head down so you cant see where your going and then it makes it easy too get lost

only last week my 'storm' was far from a storm
i had a rainbow in the sky it was the after
it was soo good
its not like that now
its raining
quite heavy
the sun is somewhere in the background but i cant see it
and unfortunatly i have left an umbrella and jacket behind so im quite vunrable