if i were a boy..

sometimes i wish i was a guy

there life seems soo much easier

although i could be wrong?

girls like fight about everything

they are seriouly the worst thing in the world

they bitch about everything

talking about eachother behind backs is got too be the worst though

i have been on both sides of the 'backstabbing'

and i absolutely never realised what it does too a person

everytime you say something bad about someone it makes that person sink that little bit lower

even if you think they dont know what your say they always find out

when you find out what people say about you it makes you feel all these types of things

you kinda lose yourself

nothing makes sense to you anymore and then you like beleive the things that those other people say

and then you get like real paranoid and think everyone is saying mean things about you

and then you dont believe the nice things and you feel like people are making fun of you when they say it

then everything just goes downhill

if there is one ting that i could say too people it would be that

never talk mean about people behind there back because you dont know what is going on with that person you dont know how its affecting them you have absolutly no idea oh yeah and if you feel like talking about others will make you invisable from that happening too you well im sorry but you are wrong

trust me i found out the hard way today

flip away

when everythin turns around what do you do
do you try too turn it back the other way
or do you let it fun itself and see what happens

Sseeventtteeen

yes im 17 today
which is quite exciting
ive had the coolest day today
hehe at work on the loud speaker it said
stacey from cold shelf...happy birthday
that was quite cool lol
then lots of people that wouldnt usally even say hello too me said happy bithday
yay
and even though i said i didnt want any presents i got heaps yay
this is going too be a good year

Pink Tutu

today was mufti day at school
and i decided to wear my pink tutu
im so sick of how everyone gets all stressed about what too wear because they are afraid of what people will say about you
yeap i used to care so much about what people would think of me
i was so scared that they would judge me by the clothes that i wear
cause that is what people do these days
so anyway i wore my pink tutu
a few looks up and down and some questions as to why i was wearing it plus some sniggering going on(which is so ovious)
but thats okay
i dont mind what people think of me anymore because i am me
and im not going to follow the way everyone else dresses if i dont like it
humm i think the hardest part of today was when i noticesd my friends talking about what i was wearing
gosh you wouldnt think that your own friends would do that to you
but its okay
im proving a point that i dont care anymore

love friends

i got these two bracelets one says friends and the other says love

when i look at them on my wrist i read them as two thing that are important

friends and love

yesterday i was playing with them on my wrist and looked and noticed

'love friends'

it was at that moment that loving your friends is way more important than love itself

would you ruin your friendships for a guy?

well i did and its the most stuiped thing i ever did

i was so blind and never notice what it was doing to my friends

what i was doing to my friends

the truth is guys let you down

and no matter how many times they say they wont

no matter how many times they say they changed

no matter how many times you believe them

they will continue to let you down

oky im not talking about every guy of course because everyone is going to find there someone

im just talking about that guy that you cant let go

..back to the friend part lol

your best friends will always be there for you no matter what you do

best friends are the ones that act silly with you

best friends get KFC the order is always the same everytime we go lol

best friends drive around in the car on all the back streets because nither of us acutally have our full

best friends sit on the playgound at the park just looking at the sky

best friends drive into the country then turn the music al loud as it will go singing our hearts out

best friends swap dresses for the ball

best friends can sit and say nothing but still feel like they had the best conversation

best friends text eachothers boyfriends telling them how lucky they are to have someone that talks about them all the time

best friends record the most sillyest conversations on there phones and listen to them just for a laugh

best friends almost get the motor bike rolled but dont tell anyone else so we dont get in trouble

best friends yell out to people to stop being mean

best friends take lots of photos together then laugh at how silly we look

best friends make you smile even when you feel like not

best friends have yelling conversations because we are both trying to be heard over eachother

best friends go moshing together and almost die

best friends talk to randoms about nothing imparticular

best friends wave to cars going past to see how many people wave back

best friends dress up together to show everyone we dont care what they think

best friends hold eachothers hand to go to the toilet

best friends do lots together

best friends tell eachother everything

best friends are friends forever

forget to forget

no matter what i do
i always forget to forget you..

Good enough?

its like everything i try too do she puts me down
and then i feel like i cant do it so i give up
there are other people that can do it way better than me so why even try?
am i kidding myself to believe that im better than i really am?
its all so confusing in my head
i feel like running and hiding away from everyone
leaving this world behind
is that something i could do?